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| We finished Day 3 and 4 of filming this weekend. We are doing reshoots this weekend in NYC and at my house... Man, I am soo exhausted! This past two months, my life consists of long phone conversations, paperwork for this film, and this film and did I mention this film. It's like I don't life. Well for one thing, I'm usually used to being the actor and not having to care about anything except for my scenes. In this film I am directing, I am running around doing 5 million jobs including clapping, make up, and photography... Thank God, this past weekend, I managed to get a full crew, so that was nice!!! including an amazing on set photographer.
One thing that I truly do enjoy on these long 17 hour days is the "driving scenes" because I got to really sort of sight see Boston through the monitor in the back.. hahaha! My crew is pretty freakin awesome and it's exciting to have just such an amazing team of talented individuals. Chris is amazing! He's extremely talented and his acting is excellent! And I talk to him more than I talk to Jimmy.. hahahaha (we are constantly on the phone making "magic" happen)! Chelsea is also a great support as well, so thank god she is there! Everytime she isn't there, things go nuts coz we need her help.
So there it is folks, super genius! (Great company, great friends, and great time)... isn't that all we need?
AHHHH!!!!! I'm tired, that's all I'm trying to say here.... I'm just so freakin' tired! And I can't wait till October when all of this is done and I can move on and hang out with people again! I miss my friends.. I want to go to CORNER STAGE! and listen to some blues music.. damn it! Don't get me wrong, I love this film, it's awesome.. but I am in love with my friend, called sleep. And I miss him so much! I miss Sleep.. he's like my best friend!
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| Today was the big audition for NBC. Now get this, I got the 5 pages of sides last week and so I had been working my ass trying to memorize and really characterize this thing. I get there, and I look at the sides (Umm, they are COMPLETELY different, new scenes, lines are flip flopped all over the place)... sooo I go over it as many times as I can.. and I just winged it... The other 3 girls in the room, were all flipping out and refused to go first, so I managed to gather up the strength to sign in first. It went well, I think. I made the CD laugh at one point. She put her hands to her face, and she just started laughing. (Hopefully she wasn't laughing AT me, but I don't thinks he was). She told me I did really good and that I was very cute (as the role actually called for "cute"-so I guess that's good). I don't know if I am necessarily what they are looking for, but who knows. It's all so weird- you spend so much time preparing for this one audition, you get in there, you read it for 5 minutes, hope to impress, and then boom.... it's like it never happened. You go back to living again, trying not to think about the freakin' sides anymore. And you don't know whether or not you did good, you were ever right for the part, or if you totally went the wrong direction with the role.... And you try to trust your instincts, but there is that one part of your brain floating back there making you question yourself. hahaha! It's nuts- all this uncertainty. And it makes you wonder like, man, why didn't you just pick a normal job with stability and no emotional attachments. I guess, that's the difference between chasing your dreams and making a living. And we hope to do both at the same time.
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| Today was a LONG but productive day. I worked at Unilever stocking grocery shelves with Jimmy's family company (Sireno Communications). It was a lot of work, but I don't mind it. I had a killer headache by the end of it though. I got through it though, by the god-send pills, Excedrin.
Tomorrow is July 4th. I love July 4th... mainly because it's a day of relaxing and watching fireworks sparkle up your familiar sky. Tomorrow, we are off to Shannon's to spend July 4th... it's wierd- I usually spend July 4th on a beach somewhere, watching fireworks being shot off in all directions down the seaside. But it should be fun.. BBQ with friends! YAY!
On Monday, I have another major audition. It's with ABC for the show "Kath and Kim." I don't get too excited for those kind of auditions anymore, as they are just another audition.. and I think it's better to think that way - because you don't want your hopes up. I am auditioning for a cool crazy "charactery" part.. it should be fun, nonetheless. I know I will do a good job.. but it takes more than a good job to book a part.. hehe ( I have learned).
This summer has been so extremely busy for me. This week alone has been one big mess. I worked overnight on Tuesday (through Wednesday). I worked today. I go to Shannon's tomorrow. I then go to Vermont till Sunday. And Monday is my audition. Meet up with my friend's for a conference in NYC after my audition. And then who knows? It's nuts... I'm nuts. This is nuts! The strike may come.. I hope it doesn't.. coz I can't afford another strike. I want to work!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| I guess I am writing in this journal again because of two things.
1. My sister's journal has inspired me to do so and
2. I feel very philosphical right now.. hahaha
Things are a little different now with my life. I have changed so much since the last time I have written on here. For one thing, I have moved twice since 2006. My first move was to JC and my second was to Vernon. I have accomplished a lot over this past 2 years! including truly honing my craft (i.e. acting). I can't believe how much I have done for the past two years and how far I have come. Looking back on it all, it's a bit weird to think about who I was and what I thought about everything. I never knew that in two years, I would be flying over to London to work! ( I mean seriously... wow)... I never knew that in two years, I would have friends from all over the world through acting. It's just all so wierd. And I finally, I never thought, I would see my recognizable face on the big screen (twice) alongside some major actors... Now, I wonder where I will be in a year from now (hopefully moving even further up in my career) and getting better and better at it. Who knows?
As far as family goes, it's been a crazy mess (as it always has been), but things are calming down for now. And I hope that everything will change and evolve into something beautiful and not evil (the way it has been)... as the trails in our lives often change who we are.
When I read back to my old journals, I saw how different I was - especially moving further and further into history. I thought of life so innocently back then. It is amusing to look back on it and I truly treasure my early entries dating back to the beginning of college.
And that is why I am writing this - I want to look back on it 3 years from now and laugh at what I thought on life. Because who knows where I'll be. At the moment, I am a striving actress who is working her ass off to get somewhere. I live for acting and I cannot bare to imagine myself doing anything else (but again - what will happen in 3 years, who the hell knows?).
I am still with JAMES (as I called him back then), he is now my Jimmy. And we are Engaged to get married. We got engaged last August, still no date.. but we are aiming for next year. There is no need to rush things, as I have learned in my past. We have grown so much from our new life in New Milford, NJ. And most importantly, we have grown together and now know each other better than anyone could.
So now where will life lead? I don't know. But I will try to record here for future reference.
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| Next Show: Animal Farm! Email me if you wanna audition: info@thelastingimpresson.com
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